According To Hoyt

This is not a post about world building, though it is that too.  It is mostly a post about life – though I’ll come at it through writing, which might make it easier to understand.

It is a cliche, tired and worn, that one has to remind new writers that magic must have a price.  This is because, particularly when you bring in something that doesn’t exist in our world, it is all too easy for young – in age or craft – people to get carried away and think all laws of reality can also be suspended.  While these books can be lots of fun to write, (kind of like those Saturday morning cartoons where your character suddenly achieves the ability to draw things and make them come to life), they are tedious to read (even that sort of cartoon throws in an archenemy or someone who’s chasing the kid to get the wondrous crayon.)

This is where life differs from writing – maybe.  I think – because acquiring that sort of power in real life would be a blast.  Well, okay, maybe it would grow tedious after a while, but frankly that’s the sort of challenge I’d like to have “how can I stop life from growing wearisome while I have everything I want and a magical pony on the side?”

Annoyingly, it is also the sort of challenge no one has.  Not in real life.  Probably part of the objectionable (or obnoxious) nature of the books where there’s no price for magic is that it’s not nice to taunt us with images of a world we can never live in.

In fact, humans so much wish they could live in a world where there’s no prices, that we often pretend those prices don’t exist, because it makes us feel better.

I don’t mean by this the price of goods and services, though the most amoral among us like to pretend that those have no cost either.  This is where the bright idea comes from that one should just take goods and services and give them to other people, in a sort of fairy-godmothery way, because…  Because when you’re a morally blind idiot you don’t realize the people who produced or acquired goods or who provide services pay a price for them – in learning or sacrifice or even a narrowing of life options – and therefore you don’t realize what you’re advocating is nothing less than slavery.  (All objections of course are removed when people voluntarily share with others things or services for which they’ve paid the price.  That’s their choice.)

It goes both ways of course.  Businesses engaging in “Hollywood accounting” (including those in Hollywood) are engaging as much in theft of another person’s life as those in the bureaucracy who legislate that type of theft.

It’s very easy to think “oh, he’d write screenplays, anyway.  And we paid him.  He doesn’t need the extra howevermuch.”  But while the screen writer might have written screen plays anyway, trust me, to get to the point you want to make a movie of it, he engaged in learning his craft, he wrote a lot of unusable screenplays, and he sacrificed time and effort without which you wouldn’t have that play.  So when taking the extra compensation that accountants make disappear, you are in fact engaging in stealing years or months of his life.

No, I’m not endorsing the Marxist theory that labor equals value.  I’m simply saying that nothing of value was produced without labor – or without learning, or without talent, or without…

I’m saying there is a price to magic.  There is a price to anything and everything in life.  You pays your dust, you takes your chances.  And, as I’ve said before, in the end you always get more or less what you want. … unless what you want is the magical crayon that can draw things and make them come to life – because that violates the rules of life in this particular universe.

Do you want to be the best runner ever?  Well, you exercise, you practice, you put in your effort and you’ll be a very good runner.  You might not be the best ever – or the best in your team – because you have the wrong body type, or because you fall and break your ankle, or…  But you’ll still be a million times a better runner than you were when you started out.  The same goes for playing an instrument, for writing, for any of the arts, crafts or sports.

Most people understand that price.  Most people even understand what we’d call “the price of fame,” where the character becomes ruler-of-the-world or the most famous musician since Elvis left the scene to open a diner in Arizona.  That type of price has been shown again and again in movies, and even though it’s a variant of “poor little rich boy/girl” we know it by heart now.  You become rich and famous, and spoiled, and you lose the contacts in your small town, and your best boy/girl (or for the more edgy movies, both) sends you a Dear John.  You either chuck it all to go back to your origins (happy ending) or you die of an overdose (unhappy ending.)

But Sarah, you say, I never want that kind of fame, so why should I consider that kind of price?

I don’t want that kind of fame, either, and – Praise the Lord, Brothers and Sisters! – I’m very unlikely to ever achieve it.

However, what most people – myself included a few years ago – fail to grasp is that there is a price to more mundane achievements, too.  For instance, having children.

Robert and I were talking yesterday about some woman about my age who said she had to find herself.  Although I despite that trite phrase, when Robert said “How do you EVEN lose yourself?” I had to point out you do.  You can’t help it.  When they’re little you’re not you, you’re mommy.  H*ll, even when they are teens, you still are giving up a major portion of your life to being mommy – to being the adult.  Someone has to do both of those.

I remember the first time I went to the grocery store without the kids, because they were old enough to be left at home alone.  It felt weird.  It was like I didn’t know how to be in the store alone, by myself, anymore.  My habits of shopping from when I was childless were quite gone.  Ditto, the first time I took a walk alone.  The first time I sat down and read a book because I wanted to (and the kids were both at school.)

It’s not just time or habit, either.  During those intensive child rearing years, my thoughts were different.  I wasn’t me.  I was Robert-and-Marshall’s mother.

As the child-rearing pressures ease (do they ever go away completely?) I’m starting to re-find myself; to see the outlines of the person there, who is Sarah Hoyt, not Robert-and-Marshall’s mother (though she is that too.)  This is not the same as the Sarah Hoyt many years ago.  For one, she doesn’t look nearly as good anymore.  For another…  She’s changed through the years and the experiences.

There’s a price.

When I chose to really try to write and publish, I started devoting vast chunks of time to it.  This means I lost some of the kids’ childhood.  There were days I wanted to just take them to the park and watch them play, but I was on deadline.  There were times I wanted to sit around and enjoy them, but I had writing to do.

Now, a lot of what I paid to have a writing career was dictated by the boundaries of the old model.  However, Indie will have its own boundaries too.  Sure, you can write and put things up there, but if you want to sell significant number, you’d best learn the craft.  (And if you haven’t read Dwight Swain’s Techniques of the Selling Writer, why NOT?)  And that will take time.  More than that, it will take effort.  You’ll emerge on the other side, not just as a selling writer, but changed.  Years will have passed that you weren’t even aware of, and you’ll be a different person.

This is true even if what you choose to pursue is a more normal career, like, say, cab driver or server.  You will have to train, and then you’ll have to practice and your rewards are likely to be commensurate with your effort.

The same is true for every hobby, at every level from casual to serious.

Achievement – magic – has a price.  It always has a price.  Mostly what you pay is your ability, your vitality, your time, your life.  But you also pay all the things you could have been doing instead.  For instance, when I chose to be a writer, I chose not to be a translator anymore.  Now if I tried to be a translator, I couldn’t.  The ability is gone.  To get it back would take almost as long as to learn it in the first place.

Ah, you say – but I won’t pay. – I’ll just sit here and do nothing.

But then you pay the price of doing nothing.  You won’t learn, you won’t do, you won’t BE.  In the end, doing nothing, choosing nothing, deciding nothing has the highest price of all.  You find yourself pushed aside from the world.  You find you have in fact paid your life, your time, your talent… for years and years of doing nothing and being nothing.

So, when you’re considering doing something, learning something, trying something; when you’re considering what you wish to concentrate on; when you think one path has no cost and the other is expensive; when you shy back from doing things and take the path of least resistence, remember – everything has a price.

Yes, sure, magic has a price.  It might take years of the magician’s life.  BUT if he doesn’t use the magic, he might instead lose his home, his friends, his kingdom.  He might have to live out his life in vile slavery.

Everything has a price.  Action and the lack of action have different prices, but nothing is free.  TANSTAAFL.

You pays your dollar.  You takes your bet.

What will it be?

Has it really been eleven years?

It was a beautiful day.  I remember that.  I got up to check email, and the AOL homepage had something about a plane flying into a building.  I thought it was a goofy thing, like that idiot who had earlier flown into – was it the Empire State Building? – in a small plane.

It was a beautiful morning, and I had a kid to take to school.  His older brother could walk on his own the five blocks to elementary, but Marshall – in Kindergarten – went in an hour later, and at any rate was too little to walk alone. (And too sleepy.  I used to get him up, bathe him, shovel breakfast into his mouth and walk him to school and if I were very lucky, he’d wake up when we got there.)

So I walked him to school, waited till the teacher took him in and walked back home, under a cloudless sky, across our little mountain village, looking forward to our writers’ group meeting that Saturday, feeling financially stable for the first time in my adult life (I’d just sold my first book) and thinking “This is when we reached adulthood.  From now on, it’s the easy part.  Things will only get better.”

When I got home, I went to the kitchen to get a cup of coffee before going up to write.  And the phone rang.  It was Rebecca Lickiss and she was screaming for me to turn on the news.

Over the rest of the day I alternated between watching the very grainy TV station and swigging Jim Beam from the bottle.  At some point I must have fried doughnuts, because I ate a pile of them.  My friend Charles was sent home from his job because it was in a tallish building.  The kids came home from school, and all through this – like a muffling fear – I couldn’t reach Dan who was, literally, working (as a contractor) at an undisclosed location somewhere near DC.  I knew of no reason he should be near the pentagon, (the company his company worked for was R. J. Reynolds, for crying out loud) but companies have weird contacts and contracts.

Turns out he was in a “Secure” — as in silent on purpose — meeting room, and didn’t know the news.  He called as soon as he heard.

I think he drove home two? Three days? Later.  Our friend Alan Lickiss drove to meet him in Hays, Kansas, and I went along as the designated swearer.  (Alan’s religion forbids swearing.)  The only way I slept until Dan got home was blotting everything with alcohol, then I got up with coffee to send the kids to school.  I sent them to school because Marshall thought Dan was dead.  He saw him leave on a plane.  He saw the plane crash.  Kindergartners have problems with the idea of more than one plane.

Has it really been eleven years?

On the one hand, part of me wants to laugh at the terrorists.  They thought they could break us.  They thought they could scare us.  They underestimated both the size of our territory and the mettle of my people.

And part of me thinks of the psychological twisting that has taken place since then: people who blame their own country for the actions of barbarians; people who kowtow to the barbarians and claim to be multiculturalists because that sounds so much better than vile cowards; people who think that a country the size of ours, as wealthy as we are should do nothing to deter attackers because we’d be protected by our halo of purity and goodness.

But then I think of the other side of it, too.  Our friends who pitched in to help me meet Dan on his way home.  Our friends who gathered in our ratty movie room so we could be together.  I think of our troops who fought the enemy there, so we wouldn’t fight them here.  I think of the brave young men and women willing to lay down their lives for this country — for the last, best hope on Earth.

And I think of those who died, even on 9/11, to save others: the people who went into the towers, to help total strangers down.  On 9/11 on the Jane Austen board, a woman who worked with Rick Rescorla was telling us all about his heroism.  You could hear her tears through her typing, but she was awed and humble as people should be who met a hero face to face.

Then there are the people of flight 93.  I know a lot of you aren’t believers, and my deepest beliefs are none of your business,  but like many writers I end up thinking of G-d as an author.  Impossible not to, of course, since it’s the mind set I know best.  (Though standing in the middle of the yard, looking up at the sky and going “Does THAT sound like a good plot development?  Seriously?  Why don’t you join a workshop already?” tends to baffle the neighbors.)

And as an author to an Author I have to admire the plotting touch, where the three burly and brave guys who spearheaded the fight back in flight 93 were a born again man, a Jewish man, and a gay man.  Can you imagine any group designed to give more heart burn to the enemies that brought down the towers and who tried to use flight 93 as a weapon?

I can’t either.  But, more importantly, I can’t imagine any other culture, any other country, any other place where those three would have banded together, immediately – instinctively – putting aside any perceived differences, thinking only of trying to save the defenseless, laying down their lives for others.

Their lives were forfeit, but they died free men.  They died heroes.  More importantly, they died Americans.

Surely a nation that produces such men will not perish from this Earth.

We will not go quietly into that good night.

We’re the land of the free and the home of the brave.  And we will stand.

When I was very young – teens – I read this book that said that people’s life-pattern is set by their favorite fairytale.  I’m not sure how insane this is – exactly – or where the psychologist who wrote it got the idea, but I have the vague memory he also thought potty-training was all important, so it would seem to be a variant of Freudianism.

Anyway, at the time I thought “oh, good gosh, my favorite” or at least most often heard “fairytale was Little Red Riding Hood in the traditional version, which really doesn’t end well for anyone.”  Of course, one would have to define “favorite” since I remember starting to cry when mom started telling it, and I remember being terrified of an embroidered picture of Little Red at the bottom of grandma’s stairs.

But lately – actually since I started re-doing Noah’s Boy – I’ve been thinking if this were true, my real ur-story would be Snow White.

I’ve mentioned before that years ago, during – arguably – the worst year of my life, an old friend/mentor told me my books weren’t good enough because I wasn’t writing things I was passionate about.

He was wrong.  He was, however, also right.  I think he was seeing the effect, but had no clue what I was doing to make it wrong, so he assumed I was writing in the wrong genre/field/subject, and if only I wrote what I really loved, all would be well.  (This is a fallacy writers are prone to believe in, btw.  It’s so comforting.  We want to believe the love we put behind a book/story/idea comes through.  Alas, nine times out of ten, both as a writer and as someone who talks to other writers, the book we love gets a tepid reception, the one we dashed off while shivering with fever because it was due will get people mobbing us for autographs.  Yes, there are reasons for this.  No, I’m not going into them now.  They’re not germane to this discussion, because that was not what was keeping my writing down, as it were.)

I was very upset at the time, because I couldn’t figure out what I could do if the books sounded like I didn’t care.  I cared.  I cared like heck.

Only… only….

Only I was caught in a spiral of sorts…

You see, I went to school in a Marxist system, where the answer had to accord with Marxist theory.  It teaches you double think.  It teaches you to read the teacher/professor and play to what they want.   You do it, or you flunk.

Getting into publishing wasn’t much different.  You still had to play to expectations.  I’ve mentioned before that I don’t think publishers thought they were controlling content.  But they were.  They still are to an extent.  There are still things that would never get accepted.

This is the problem: the danger of double think is that it twists your brain.  You aren’t thinking logically, or even about what you believe.  You’re not feeling your character’s path without interference.  Instead, a part of your brain is being logical about it, and following logical thoughts… the other part of your brain is analyzing how a publishing house will react to this, how this will affect their perception of your political leanings, how this will affect your long-term career, how–

It’s everywhere.  You can’t think from A to B, because you throw in D to throw people off the trail of how you really feel about it, then you take an excursion through E so that the other people don’t think you’re an idiot, and then…

But Sarah, you’re not writing political thrillers.

No.  That might have been easier, frankly.  Instead, I was tripping over all the shibboleths relating to: women vs. men; colonized and colonizers; view of peasants in history; political and governing theory… etc, etc.

If you’ve been trained in the type of system where you have to hide everything you think in order to pass/survive/thrive, you sense pitfalls and traps where people raised in a free system would never see them.  That awareness kept me writing and selling for years.

It also did something else, though – and I can’t even explain how, because, again, most of my writing is not social or political – it dulled and distanced the resulting prose.

Circumstances forced me to start admitting my opinions to myself and others about two years ago.  It’s been a long, slow process and one in many ways I still wish hadn’t happened.

Except for my writing.  There is no explanation for this.  NONE.  But my writing now is more alive, more intense, more… me than it ever was before.

It wasn’t/isn’t a conscious process, and frankly, for all I know, it might only be visible to me – but since I stopped trying to anticipate how publishers would think/guess/view what I had to say – it seems to have made my writing more decisive, self-confident, more individual.

I realized this as I looked at Noah’s Boy and figured out how, by following the outline written more than two years ago, I was balking the story of its true outlines.  It literally is easier at this time to write things true to themselves than to try to force them.

Is there a difference or is it all in my mind?

Who knows?  I know that by being able to dream and think without worrying about whether it finds a publisher or not, I’ve become more myself and perhaps Terry Pratchett was right, perhaps the whole point of life is to be yourself as hard you can.

Or perhaps I’m imagining the whole thing.
One way or another this I can tell you: I feel better since there is the possibility of indie, even when I don’t use it.  And I think clearer.

For that I’m grateful.  Yes, indie has its drawbacks, in terms of what you have to learn and how you have to operate, (more on that towards the end of the week) but for this much I’m grateful: it has broken my mind out of its chains.

For now, it is enough.

*No, I didn’t get around to doing the post publicizing my commenters.  I apologize.  I seem to be working on a head cold, as well as trying to get ready for Texas.  I will try to post that later today.*

Just today, and just for this blog.  There’s something else I must do which is of the utmost importance but which, being political, will not be published here.  There is also a manuscript to revise and Noah’s Boy to try to finish before the trip to Texas next week.

I doubt it will be finished mostly because this week has been a mess.  We’ve been under various deadlines, all of us, and there’s only so much energy in the Sarah to deal with everything.

So today I’m going to finish my tea, write what absolutely MUST be written and THEN go over fixing Noah’s Boy.

Later I will publish what you are all publishing, etc — if you haven’t told me about it yet, tell me in the comments to this.

There is also an announcement  Liberty Island has asked me to make and a few other such things.  However, that will be later.

And of course I’ll be back tomorrow morning, bright and early.

*This is the Fantasy novel I’m posting here for free, one chapter every Friday.   If your conscience troubles you getting something for free, do hit the donate button on the right side.  Anyone donating more than $6 will get a non-drm electronic copy of Witchfinder in its final version, when it’s published.
There is a compilation of previous chapters here  all in one big lump, which makes it easier to read and I will compile each new chapter there, a week after I post.  When the novel is completed and about to be edited the compilation page will probably be deleted.

Oh, this is in pre-arc format, meaning you’ll find the occasional spelling mistake and sentence that makes no sense.  It’s not exactly first draft, but it’s not at the level I’d send to a publisher, yet. *

 

Very Unlikely Heroes

“But why are your family involved in it?” Seraphim asked Jonathan Blythe, frowning a little.  “I can understand that Sydell…”  Seraphim looked towards Marlon and managed, apologetically, “You’ll pardon me, Elfborne, but true must be told in some manner, and my own half-brother comes from similar background, and I understand that a lot of people raised in foundling homes, particularly those of noble origin might resent the rest of the world that excludes them, no offense meant.”

Marlon gave an odd hollow cackle.  “None taken, I’m sure.  I could attest to some of that effect in myself, compounded by others…”

“Anyway, I could understand Sydell, ascended to power and pride, to need … more than mere mortal honors.  But why your family, Blythe?  They have all the honor of being one of the oldest magical families in the world.  And they – unlike our family – aren’t all to pieces, but have a handsome patrimony preserved through generations and augmented by a lucrative magical trade.  They have nothing to gain from being involved in this.”

Jonathan looked up at Seraphim.  Seraphim was sure that his friend was still drunk, and also that he was still the same Jonathan he’d known since they were both children: a devil may care sensualist, more concerned with his pleasures and his experiences than with anything else.  But Jonathan’s eyes had gone very sober, very serious and there was something uncommonly like shrewdness in their blue depths, something that made Seraphim uncomfortable.  He’d always known that Jonathan wasn’t stupid.  But he’d also have sworn that Jonathan would rather endure any kind of hell than actually use his mind.  Now, suddenly, he wasn’t so sure.  It was one more shift in his world, one more change from things he’d always known to things he perhaps should have thought more carefully about.  Did he really know Jon Blythe?  Did he really know anyone in what he’d thought his safe and familiar world?

“You’d think that, wouldn’t you, Ainsling?” Jonathan said.  He pulled at his lower lip, as though deep in some calculation.  “The thing is Seraphim, that in some ways you are a very naive man.  I always thought that when we were at school, and you’d sit through the holy service, rapt, as though– Never mind.  I think you tend to believe the best of people.”

“Oh, that’s not true at all.  I’ve rescued magic users from–”

Jonathan dismissed Seraphim’s protest with a wave of the hand.  “Yes, yes.  Other worlds, foreign atrocities and all that.  That’s not what I mean.  I daresay that you know people do all sorts of horrible things, as who wouldn’t who has read history?  Even Richard the First, what he did to his brother, that Magical invisibility spell–” Jonathan shuddered.  “I daresay you understand cruelty and meanness and even perhaps a very exaggerated sort of pride that requires more than its share of reverence.  But that, Seraphim, are because those are the vices you can sort of see from your own position.  Oh, I’m not saying you have them.  I always thought you a rather good sort of man and, until the recent rumors, a dull dog.”  He dismissed any protest Seraphim might make with an airy wave of the hand.  “I know, I know.  Your father wasn’t properly looking after the domains and all that.  Understandable, but it made you a dull dog, anyway.  I combined your penchant for looking after everyone and sticking your nose where it don’t concern you and your excessive care of your name and family.  Which means you never understood, never, for a moment, how most other people’s minds work.  No, don’t interrupt me.

“I will confess that, like you, I never much cared for power and control over other people.  You’re not interested because you already had responsibility over other people at too early an age, and I’m not interested because I don’t want to have responsibility and it has always seemed to me the two are inseparable.  But I am at least close enough to it to understand other people want power and wealth, not because they need it, but because they can have it.  M’father wants more power and wealth because Sydell wanted a partner in his dealings, and he contacted my father.  And telling my father there were hundreds of worlds ready for the exploiting, devoid of magical defenses, and that someone – someone – could help pluck them of their wealth is sort of like telling me you have a cellar full of prime French brandy–” A bright look, as if something had just occurred to him, and he turned to Elfborne, “You don’t by any chance, do you?”  And to Marlon’s shaking his head.  “Pity.  But as I said, it’s like telling me that and expecting me to say that no, I don’t want to partake, because I’ve drunk enough.”

Seraphim nodded.  He didn’t fully believe it.  He wanted to tell Jonathan that there was a risk involved in this, that it wasn’t as easy as sharing a cellar of brandy.  But then …  Perhaps Jonathan was right.   And besides, there was something scarier here.  “But–” he said, as the full horror of it hit him.  “But if they’ve been exploiting these non magic worlds for decades, gaming their games of chance and their financial markets–” The idea was almost too monstrous to fit into words: the idea of all those non magical humans blithely exploited, with no chance of defending themselves.  “They must own several worlds by now.”

“Very likely,” Jonathan said, drily.  He turned to Elfborne, “Sydell, I don’t suppose there would be more tea in this house?  If I can’t have brandy…  You must know that I have a powerful thirst.”

Seraphim noted that Elfborne didn’t protest the name, though his eyes widened slightly at being called by it.  He also didn’t get up.  Instead, he made a gesture and Seraphim felt the invisible threads of a spell do SOMETHING to the tea pot, which returned to the table almost immediately filled with tea.

He frowned.  Using magic for household tasks was normally disapproved of, but not because, as could be imagined, it weakened character or was gauche.  It was disapproved of because any man who used his magic in normal household tasks every day would both shorten his life and keep his magic at a very low ebb and magic after all was held to have a higher purpose.  However, Seraphim noted, Elfborne had done it with almost no effort.  The magic expended must be large enough to weaken a normal magician at least a little, particularly since he’d clearly bent space and time to bring tea back instantly instead of the more normal levitating of the tea things to the kitchen and making tea by normal, magic-aided means.  He narrowed his eyes.  If Elfborne’s power signature was smaller there was no way of seeing it.  Of course, his power signature was a confusing mess, a convoluted swirling of colors and places where odd power joined odd power.

Part dragon, part elf, part human – what WAS Elfborne?  And could he be trusted at all?  Seraphim didn’t say anything of this, but instead helped himself to tea, and said, “But still…  I can see wishing to own other worlds, wishing to exploit their wealth, wishing to have power over their inhabitants, though I’d think that even then, once it’s more than a world it can’t be a matter of great–” He shrugged.  “Never mind.  Don’t tell me again how naive I am, Jon.  But what I don’t understand is why kidnap the princess, why make an attack on my family.  I can see that Sydell means to conquer both thrones, and I heard it from you that this is true – but I can’t see how he gets there from where he is.”

Which is when Elfborne’s hand trembled.  He said “Oh, my God,” and the teacup fell from it, shattering on the table, in a shower of shards and golden liquid.  From his lips came horrible liquid-fire syllables that seemed to twist the ear and the mind upon which they fell.  Seraphim knew it was elven language, because he’d heard it from Gabriel before, but this one, this one must be old and long encoded into a powerful form.

The effect on Jonathan was even more interesting.  He put his cup down very carefully then leapt across the small table at Elfborne, clamping his hand on the other man’s mouth.  “Not one more word.  Not one more.  Yes, you are right.  That is it entire.  But do not say it.  What possessed you?  Words of power!  And those words.  You might as well shine a beacon on us and call fairyland’s armies to us.”  He took a deep breath.  “I am now going to remove my hand from your mouth.  You will not say another word in elven.  Do you understand me?”

Elfborne looked up at Jonathan and seemed to be having trouble believing this was the amiable drunk of moments before.  At length, he nodded.  Jonathan removed his hand and sat back again.  Elfborne made a gesture and the shards of cup and the spilled tea vanished.

Seraphim looked at Jonathan, “You understand elven?”

“No. Well, not so much.  There was this half elf who–” he stopped.

It was Marlon who broke in, with almost maniac cheerfulness.  “Tuppable?”

“Very. She was… Ah never mind.  She went back.  But any rate, that I know that particular set of elven words has nothing to do with that.  It’s all part of Sydell’s mad plan, and I’ve heard him quote it often enough.”  He glared at Marlon.  “Though never without the proper protections.”

“I beg pardon,” Marlon said.  “I didn’t think.”

“That,” Jonathan said.  “Is blindingly obvious.”

“I don’t have the pleasure of understanding either of you,” Seraphim said.

“It’s a prophecy,” Marlon said.  “I learned parts of it when I studied Intended History – that is history that–”

“I know what intended history is,” Seraphim protested.  I’m not illiterate.”

“No.  Very well.  As you know there are prophecies about almost every land, and the intent… it’s like a spell that will almost for sure force it to eventually come true, unless a lot of mages take great care to avert it, and even then – if the prophecy persists for millennia and lots of people believe it and repeat it, it will gain force and will eventually…  You must know the king has mages working around the clock to stave off the prophecy about how “From Albion’s shores the lion’s seed shall die” I suspect that’s what he thought was breaking through when his daughter vanished.”  He shrugged.  “This prophecy is unusual because it applies not to a land or a race, but to fairyland and… and all the universes.”  He seemed to run the lines in his mind.  “I don’t know how to say it, prettily in English, much less in a way that you’ll understand its magical force.  Even in translation, the words have power, and speaking them–”

“Rather you didn’t speak them, if it’s all the same to you Sydell,” Jonathan interposed.

“No.  Well, the prophecy is of a man, half elf, raised in human lands, who will come back and win the throne of fairyland in a fair fight and take it unwilling and rule it…  But it’s an odd prophecy.  The line is “and in a day the might of fairyland will be upended, the worlds stopped in their spinning.”  Lots of people think that this… tyrant king of fairyland will destroy all the worlds.  Others think it just means that magic will be changed in fairyland.  Others still– There’s many opinions.”  He frowned.  “I suspect my dear papa thinks though that he can cannibalize fairyland to feed his power here, and rule here as a never dying king.”  He frowned.  “It would fit his pattern.”

“Something like that,” Jonathan said.

Marlon raised his eyebrows.  “I see.  Worse still.  Very well.  Now – what do we do about it?  I suppose getting proof of this and taking it before the king’s council would do nothing.”

Jonathan shook his head.  “They’ve had the king enthralled for years.  From something I heard, Sydell raped and eventually sacrificed a dri– Your mother, Sydell?”

Marlon nodded.  “That I’ve known since a highly illegal spell and a lot of prodding revealed to me who I was.”

“Devilish,” Jon said.  “But the thing is, that gave them an open vein of power to fairyland.  They have half the court and definitely the king spelled.  That’s how they stripped you of your honors, Ainsling.  If we showed them proof nothing would happen.  Or rather, we’d die very quickly.”

“No,” Seraphim said.  He was seeing the horrible bind they were in.  “Nothing short of killing Sydell will stop it, and if Sydell has that much power, I can’t imagine– Besides being against the law.”

Marlon laughed.  A startling, uncontrolled laugh, all elf.  He grinned, and his teeth looked suddenly very sharp.  “I’m not,” he said.  “Within the law.  And I’m not afraid of papa’s power.  You want him killed?  God – I didn’t even realize it.  I’ve wanted to kill him for years.  Even if I have to die for it, it will be worth it.  What have I to live for, anyway?  I’ve lost–” a minuscule pause.  “Everything in the world worth living for.”

“Wait,” Seraphim said.  “Merely killing him will do nothing, unless we have the proof we need of the conspiracy – and are in a position to present it to the king.”

Jonathan slammed the cup down on the saucer making a sound like a bell.  “Damme.  M’father has the records of his world-works under magical key and I might not be able to get them, but I’m of his blood and I’ll try.”

“What?” Seraphim said, shocked.  “You can’t mean that.  If you expose him–”

“Yes, I do mean that,” Jonathan said, and once more Seraphim had the impression he’d gone to sobriety through drunkenness and through madness to sanity.  “You see, I was drinking because I thought somehow all this will explode in our faces.  Sydell, once he seizes power will let no witness live.  And if he doesn’t seize power, if it goes wrong, my family will be stripped out, root and branch.  But the only guilty ones are m’father and m’sister.  If I can prove it…  If I’m one of the ones who saves the throne of Avalon, we can save my mother, my house, and the young ones, who had no part of this.”  He let out a sudden cackle.  “Damme, Seraphim, I’m becoming like you.”

Seraphim took a deep breath.  The casual attitude didn’t disguise the risk the young man would be taking.  He found himself in awe of Jonathan and a little out of step.  Perhaps he really had never known Jon at all.

“Very well,” he said.  “I will then go to the palace – undercover, of course.  Don’t protest.  Other than Marlon Elf– other than him, I’m the only one who might have the power to do it.  I will collect the witness of spells from when the princess vanished.”

“You can’t do that,” Jon said.  “To do so, you’d need a connection to her.  Damme, don’t you think–”

Seraphim remembered her kiss on his lips, and took a deep breath.  “I have a connection to her.  No.  Don’t ask.  I don’t have time to explain.”

Elfborne smiled as though seeing a design finally completed.  “Very well, gentlemen.  While you do that, I shall find my dear, dear papa and lay a trap.”

*Kate writes about acculturation.  I find this post fascinating because some of her experiences are the opposite of mine.  I have found that with the exception of a generation or so, Americans are less worshipful of the external marks of success than other people and more likely to tell people to take authority and shove it.  I wonder if the difference is where Kate comes from, or just the fact that she came here almost twenty years after me, and whether we’ve changed that much in that time.  I’d like to say the TSA is not something I’d have expected us to swallow for more than a few months, in dire emergency.  Perhaps we’re being boiled very slowly.

The only other note on her feeling more Australian the longer she’s here…  I felt like that until I went back to Portugal for three months, about six months in.  And suddenly I felt more American than any American.  This is because the human brain only sees the differences and magnifies them.  Of course, now I am American in a way I was never Portuguese.  You see, I actually believe in the founding principles.  There are still a few of us…*

So, Sarah wants me to guest here, and she’s given me free rein to rant… er, write whatever I want. MWAHAHAHAHAAAAA! (Um, oops. Let the mask slip a bit there).

Anyway, a couple of weeks back I was ranting over at Mad Genius Club about culture and how various things affect it. Kind of sideways, since I was actually saying how there’s no such thing as the Great American Novel, but still, a lot of things go into what a culture looks like and they affect the way people look at things in subtle but important ways. Or, to use the fancy words, culture is where the world-view comes from, and that affects the paradigms a person recognizes.

I make a pretty good illustration of this. I might have been in the USA for going on ten years now, but I’m still thoroughly Australian. I may never be anything but Australian even if/when I eventually take citizenship. It’s not that I don’t like the USA and its principles, it’s more that the more I live here the more I realize how Australian I am in everything except the beer. Hell, despite not ever being much interested in sport, I find American sports incomprehensible, but I’ll cheerfully watch the sports Aussies obsess over.

And one of the regular complaints from Australia is how much the place is being “Americanized”. What I’ll call for the want of a better term mainstream American culture is superficially very similar to mainstream Australian culture. The differences don’t seem to be particularly important – to the extent that when I moved here to get married, I naively expected the USA to be like Australia only better.

Well, no. It’s not. It’s different. Some things are better, some are worse, and some are just plain baffling.

One of the first things that I noticed was how much more Americans generally trust those in authority. To this Aussie, that’s plain weird. Australia got its start as a convict settlement where most of the convicts were petty criminals or political prisoners, and their overseers were the dregs of the British Army. The New South Wales Army Corps was where the British Empire dumped the soldiers who were too much trouble anywhere else – so those convicts in a place that was alien and upside down (they had no idea seasons are reversed in the southern hemisphere, which nearly starved the settlement) were stuck with brutal and incompetent overseers. Their religious guidance such as it was came from the “Flogging Parson” who was notorious for trying to save their souls on Sunday and beat the life out of them the rest of the week.

No surprise, Australians generally have a deep distrust of anyone in authority, and tend to believe that not only does power corrupt and absolute power corrupt absolutely, anyone who seeks power is either already corrupt or highly corruptible. In short, all politicians are lying bastards and so are all bosses, union leaders and other such sorts, and the only way to keep them half-way honest is to stay on them like flies on shit. (I should probably add that Australians typically don’t regard most of the four-letter-word family as swearing. Or a lot of other language that gives Americans the vapors. As for politically correct language, it generally takes less than 24 hours for the current PC-phrase-du-jour to be used as an insult. Australian English is extremely contextual.)

Add to that a country where damn near everything can kill you – Terry Pratchett’s scene in Last Continent where Death starts by asking for a list of dangerous animals and plants in XXXX (Which is actually an Australian brand of beer) and gets buried under books, then asks for a list of non-dangerous critters and gets a single piece of paper with the line “Some of the sheep” isn’t really exaggerating. Much – and where the main driver of little things like rainfall is the temperature of the South Pacific Ocean miles away (you know, the thing that drives whether there’s going to be El Nino, La Nina or something indeterminate) and you get a country where people shake their shoes and clothes out before putting them on and assume that anything good is transient and to be enjoyed while it lasts.

It’s built a culture of work hard, do it once, right, then go relax and have a beer. Also a culture that regards failure and misfortune as inevitable because everything really is out to get you. You can do everything right and still get screwed by Australia. But it’s still the best bloody place on Earth, mate, and God help anyone who tries to say otherwise, because Aussies won’t.

You’ll hear people claim that Australians are racist. They’re not. They just sound racist because all the originally racist words end up becoming terms of affection. Or just outright descriptive. An Aussie is not being racist when talking about going to “the chink restaurant up the road”. That Aussie is probably friendly with the people running the restaurant, and has kids who play with the restaurant owners kids regularly. It’s just that “chink” is shorter than “chinese”, and it’s become a generic nickname. All Australians typically care about is whether someone works at what they do, and keeps trying even when the sky opens and the brown stuff falls.

Because one thing Australians do know is that success and failure both have a hell of a lot of luck attached.

From what I’ve seen the USA completely missed the luck factor. The founding mythos isn’t one of injustice from the Powers That Be, but one of religious people ultimately finding the promised land. On top of that, the USA got a truly astonishing collection of intellects in the founders of the nation, which led to the notion that the people in charge were there because they actually deserved to be there.

This poor Aussie very nearly ended up picking up pieces of exploded brain over that one.

American heroes tend to be shot down and discarded as soon as they show any kind of flaw, which is equally mystifying to Aussies. Aussie heroes are the ones who keep at it despite what happens, and despite – sometimes because of – their flaws. The people who get torn to pieces are the ones who make the mistake of trying to claim they’re better than anyone else. The way to be a popular success in Australia is the combination of “I worked hard and I got lucky.”

But then, Americans did get the promised land, in a way. Americans went west and found endless plains of arable land, reasonably predictable seasons, and weather that while harsher than European weather was liveable. Australians found desert. Lots of desert. And floods that covered half the continent with water before disappearing and going back to desert again. Americans found California. Australians found desert that turned into beach. Shark infested beach, at that. Americans got corn. Australians got the most toxic snake in the world.

So Americans had mostly a land that told them if they worked hard they’d succeed. Australians had one that told them they could do everything right and the land would still break them. End result, Americans expect success, where Australians keep an eye out for trouble and don’t trust a bloody thing. The American success story is certain he got there entirely because of his hard work, where the Australian success story is pretty sure the bloke beside him who worked just as hard and failed was unlucky where he got lucky – and tries never to forget that luck changes. (Yes, Australians are inveterate gamblers. So much so that the Australian Tax Office does not classify winnings from gambling as income. It’s a windfall and not taxable.)

Most of all of this was completely invisible to me, until I started living here. You don’t see the world view of your culture until you live in another culture. It’s just “normal”.

Which of course means that writing a culture that’s radically different from your own is an interesting challenge. This would be why not many authors can do it. And why being able to do it is important. Aside from anything else, someone who can get inside the mindset of a different culture can also look at their own culture from that other perspective and see the blind spots.

Not everything is perfect, and the USA has its share of flaws. There’s a difference between acknowledging the flaws and wanting to improve them, and thinking that because it’s not perfect it must be evil (a peculiarly American issue, as far as I can tell). I’m all for the former, but anyone who tries to pull the latter on me is in for some choice Kate-bitchiness.

I should add that the same applies at the every level: personal, family, locality… all the way up the scale. From my perspective the best thing Human Wave offers is the ability to acknowledge the flaws without presuming everything flawed must be evil.

And now if you’ll excuse me, I have Evil Overlording to do.