You Might Have Writers’ Block IF

You suddenly find yourself needing to research something that has nothing to do with your current work – the exact time it would take to go between London and Paris on foot, if one could walk on water, say, or perhaps the airspeed velocity of an unladen swallow.

Things no one could have paid you to read or watch, are suddenly fascinating and you say something like “Wow, Oxford dictionary, what plot, what verve. I wonder why I never read it cover to cover before.” Or perhaps “Paint drying. Incredible!”

Your house needs to be clean. I mean, really clean. Why did you never think to wax the floor of the front porch before?

If you actually make it to your desk, you realize your keyboard is filthy and must be unplugged and cleaned, with qtips and paint brushes.

What the block means, at least in me – I am almost exclusively an intuitive writer. This doesn’t mean it’s unplotted. I plot and pay a lot of attention to structure. It’s more that I don’t know what I’m trying to say with the work till I read it. Meaning leaks in.

Usually what brings me to a complete stop is knowing that meaning went awry in the plot, sometimes. But it can also be sheer lack of self-confidence. With Darkship Thieves, I moaned and b*tched for MONTHS because the plot felt too fractured to me. With Darkship Renegade? Honestly? I think it’s because I WANT it to be SO good that I’m blocking myself.

The funny and sad thing is that without these fits, I could easily write a book a month. (With necessary revisions.)

The good news is that I think I’m almost done with this block thing this time. Now, if real life doesn’t interfere, I should be able to finish. (Yes, I thought that before, but real life intervened. So, keep fingers crossed.)

A snippet

Sorry to be so late posting and not to have posted at all yesterday.  I’m not feeling really well, and I’m not sure what the problem is.  However, writing ANY nonfiction seemed entirely beyond my power.  Still does. 

You know I hate to flog my own stuff, so don’t think of it that way, but here to amuse you (I guess) is the opening of the short story Blood Ransom which has lent its title to the little anthology of short stories just brought out by Naked Reader (link on side bar, if you really must.)

This is one of those characters who’s been clammoring, and there’s an entire series with her, sort of hard edged procedurals in a world divided evenly between vampires and humans.

Blood Ransom

Sarah A. Hoyt

 

They stood at my door, in the last light of the dying day, side by side, looking like they would like to be invited in, but I wasn’t that stupid. One of them was taller than the other by a good two inches, but other than that, they might have been twins: identical dark hair, cut very short, identical broad shoulders and a suggestion of muscles beneath the identical black suits, identical mirrored sun glasses.

They also both smelled like Immortals: the suggestion of corruption beneath a floral scent and what – even if one knew they’d never been near a funeral parlor – one couldn’t help thinking of as embalmer’s fluid.

I saw myself in their sunglasses: a faded middle-aged woman with indifferently brown hair, indifferently brown eyes and a multitude of freckles, wearing my gardening jeans and t-shirt. I wiped dirt from my hands to the legs of the jeans and said, “How may I help you, gentlemen?”

It took them a moment to respond. Perhaps they’d gotten used to deference in that new world I’d left behind as surely as if I’d been a nun.

“Ms. Bretenes?” the tall one asked.

“Yes.” Surely it couldn’t be that hard to find me. There wasn’t a farm or even another house for two miles around. And suddenly that thought turned around on me. There were two immortals at my door, and there wasn’t a farm or a house for miles around. No human who would come to my aid.

My hands felt clammy with sweat and the pulse on the side of my neck beat frantically. All of which was stupid of me. After all, the immortals were now civilized, part of the established order. They would no more want more humans turned than any rational being wants his food supply diminished or turned into competitors. It hadn’t been just political correctness renaming them from vampires to immortals. They had become citizens and been, in a way, defanged.

“We…” The short one said and hesitated. “That is, may we come in?”

“No.”

They inclined their heads in unison. When the tall one looked up, he said, “We have come to ask your help.”

“My help?” I echoed, sounding half witted, which was a compromise. I held back the words Do you know who I am and how many of you I killed?

The Top 5 Surprising Things I’ve Learned About Women From Reading Regency Romances

By my husband Dan Hoyt

Lately, I’ve been reading Regency romances.  Why?  Well, as a writer, it’s always a good thing to keep up with what’s selling to readers.  Not that I’m targeting my audience, mind you, but I’d like to thing that someone out there might be interested in reading my work, and it helps to know what readers find interesting.  That way, I can better set the tone of my story, and I can still write whatever I find interesting.  Duh, winning!

 Why romance?  Why not science fiction and fantasy, which is the genre I tend to write.  Romance is the biggest chunk of genre readership, hands down – by an order of magnitude (that’s a factor of 10 for you non-scientific types).  Heck, judging by recent phenomena like Amanda Hocking, it might be the biggest chunk of readership, period.  And I wanted to know why.

 Why Regency, then?  Why not paranormal, which seems to be the hot sub-genre these days?  Simply put, staying power.  Arguably, Regencies are the one sub-genre of romance you can depend on still being read decades later.  I’m not going to drag Jane Austen into this discussion, since she was writing them during the time period in question, but there are a ton (okay, I’m not below a sly Regency reference!) of writers who credit early 20th-centry Georgette Heyer, who spearheaded the modern Regency sub-genre, as a major influence.  (Not unlike musicians today crediting Leonard Cohen, even if they were born decades after his heyday.)  Look in any used bookstore, and you’ll find a boatload of Regencies cycling in and out.  Clearly, they still enjoy a great deal of popularity.

 So, to the point.  I wasn’t trying to find out what makes women tick.  I wasn’t even trying to find out what kind of men women like.  I am happily married after all (26 years!), so I’m not trolling “the Marriage Mart.”  But if these Regencies can be believed, I found out a few surprising things about women, nonetheless.  By way of disclosure, this is based on a half dozen novels, and is purely intended for entertainment, based on those novels, nothing more, and should not be construed (I hope!) as an accurate depiction of modern women.

 5. The most attractive thing about a man are his eyes.  Forget being a gym rat, if you’re simply self-confident, women will overlook a lot of defects in your physique and see you for the buff, attractive gentleman you strive to be by working out every day. To be fair, this wasn’t as surprising as it should have been. Unlike  Regency heroes, who always seem to have green or blue eyes, I have brown eyes, but I always thought they were one of my better assets.  Over the years, many girls and women commented on my “piercing gaze that seems to look right through you into your soul.”  When I was courting my wife, I sent her a picture with my patented piercing gaze looking over my sunglasses, and she showed it to her girlfriends; the general reaction (according to her) was akin to: “Hey, I have an idea!  I’ll come over to America with you and steal your boyfriend!”  So I had an idea women looked at men’s eyes.  Some advice for you guys looking to impress a woman:  pay attention to her when you’re with her!  What she says, what she does, where she looks – you know, at least act like you’re enjoying her company. Nothing puts off a woman more than a disinterested guy.  Which brings me to…

 4. Women fall in love “at first sight” with a man who’s honorable, and they’re looking for the man who falls for them instantly, too.  First impressions are key, even if they’re bad, so long as time proves their intentions were honorable.  Remember Pride and Prejudice?  He can be as unlikeable as sin, but as long he’s honorable, he’ll win the fair maiden’s heart. Oh, it helps if her knees turn to jelly and he sets her loins on fire, too.  That seems to be a big thing.  Women – and men – who are in love can’t bear to stand, and eventually fall down – usually into a bed – with the sheer exhaustion of being in love.  Of course, Regency men  – at least the titled Lords – don’t actually seem to do anything at all, short of managing their inheritance and spending money.  Which shouldn’t be all that surprising, since…

 3. Anything a woman does, she’ll do better without trying than any man, no matter how much he practices.  This includes managing an estate, playing the violin, shooting a bullseye with target pistols, fending off an armed attacker, etc.  I don’t know about you, but I can play the piano and sing, but after several years of doing them only sporadically, I don’t think I could make it on  American Idol, America’s Got Talent or The Voice.  A woman with my musical background would be the next YouTube sensation, if she just put up a camera-phone video of her singing Happy Birthday to her one-year-old child. Simply put, women are awesome-sauce!  I’m beginning to understand why the Kama Sutra’s list of what a woman needs to be competent doing includes both painting teeth and planning and executing a war campaign.  Which made it all the more surprising to me that…

 2. In the end, women want to have a LOT of babies.   They’ll give up everything for the right man, and then their lives will be perfectly fulfilled by producing children.  And I’m not talking just one or two here, but a dozen seems to be the preferred number.  Mind you, this is only possible with the right man.  And apparently, the right kiss, because…

 1. Any woman, no matter how inexperienced with men, will give it up for a really good French kiss.  And I’m not talking about just third base, here; I mean a solid home run, with an extra couple of base runs for the fans. If only I’d known this when I was a teenager, I might have dated before the second semester of my senior year in high school!  Ah, c’est la vie.  Still, I landed – and kept – the hot foreign exchange student from exotic Portugal, so I guess I did something right!

Random bits of randomness

First of all, you should read Kris’ post today, which does tie in with my post on ebooks.  My only disagreement with her is how fast midlisters with less name will sell in ebook.  Neither of us has an answer, of course, we’re both writing, and we’ll both do our best to survive this.  In fact, if I had to bet on a survivor, Kris would top the list.

    http://kriswrites.com/2011/06/15/the-business-rusch-bookstore-observations/

Now, various random facts:

– Yesterday my attic window showed up open behind the cat boxes.  No idea how or why.  The roof is not accessible from anywhere outside and it takes more than cat strength to open that window.  Oh, also at that time, none of my family had gone near it.  Vampires, I’d guess.

– As I lose weight my feet size are shrinking.  I’m down two whole sizes.  Fat Feet is a GREAT name for a rock band.

-How is it possible to have TWO whole novels in your head, all ready to come out, and not be able to make your fingers type?  Head>desk.  If I’m absent for a couple of days, I’m putting all my energy into getting my fingers to obey me.

-One of my cats thinks he’s a teapot.  Guess which.

Betraying A Little

This post will seem to be about translation. It’s not. This is a metaphor. The post is a continuation of yesterday’s on writing minority view points: who should do it, how it should be done, and why the establishment gets it wrong, of course. (Also on whether there is some special virtue in doing it. And on who wants to read this.)

The discussion here and at Mad Genius Club yesterday reminded me of when I was sixteen and embarked on a class called “Techniques of Translation.”

Although I had studied French and English and German, the translations I’d done so far were of the “I took the pen of my neighbor” variety. I thought the class would teach me to smooth out the sentence to “I took my neighbor’s pen” and that would be that.

I was wrong. Oh, it taught that also, but that was a minor portion of it. The class mostly hinged on the moral, ethical and – most of all – professional dilemmas of being a translator. I know any number of you are translators, formal or informal, but any number of you are also not. So, for the ones who are not, let me break the news with my usual gentleness:

There is no such thing as translation.

The French have a proverb “to translate is to betray a little” – or at least that’s the closest meaning in English. It’s fairly close to the true meaning, but slightly askew, of course. Every language is slightly askew to other languages.

The idea that there exists in every language a word that is exactly the equivalent of other languages is sort of like assuming that aliens will – of course – live in houses, go to school, ride buses, understand Rebecca Black’s “Friday”.

Language is how we organize our thoughts, and each word, no matter how simple, carries with it the cultural freight and experience of the specific language. Oh, “mother” will generally mean “the one who gave birth to” – except for some tribal, insular cultures where it might mean “the one who calls me by her name” or “my father’s principal wife” – but the “feel” behind it will be different, depending on the images associated with “mother” in the culture.

So, when you translate, you’re actually performing a function as a bridge. Translation is not the straightforward affair it seems to be but a dialogue between the original language and the language you translate into. If you’re lucky, you meet halfway. Sometimes that’s not possible, and you feel really guilty about “lying” to the people receiving the translation. When on top of language you need to integrate different cultures and living systems (which you do when translating anything even an ad) you feel even more guilty, because you’re going to betray, no matter how much you try. At one point, a while back, I had my dad on one phone, my husband on the other, and I was doing rapid-fire translation about a relatively straight forward matter. And even that caused me pangs in conscience, because my dad simply doesn’t understand how things are done here. I had to approach his experience and explain our experience in a way he wouldn’t think I was insane or explaining badly. That meant a thousand minor lies.

Okay – now, what does that have to do with yesterday’s topic?

I am, as I tried to point out, a woman who grew up in a different culture. I am American – please don’t dispute it – because one of the wonders about America is that it doesn’t matter where you came from, you can be one of us. However, my past is Portuguese.

Portugal is one of those odd countries, about which most people know nothing while thinking they know a lot. Nine out of ten people think it’s in South America. Heck, a Yale liberal arts graduate once ARGUED with me about this. An international operator once informed me that it was a city in Spain.

People tell me we have ancient wisdom; that we’re standard white westerners; that we’re Hispanic (closer, at least when it comes to our experience in America because most of us ON SIGHT look Hispanic); that we’re passionate and hot blooded; that we’re (at least women) repressed and obedient, and a lot of other things I DON’T KNOW. I don’t know because it’s impossible for me to know, because a) everyone seems to have a different stereotype of what “Portuguese” means and b) because people assume I am this, without telling me.

Portugal is, in fact, obscure enough to be used for “hot strange minority” in comedies or “exotic place” in TV dramas. The way it’s used (a “swinger” couple in Friends, really?) usually makes me laugh my head off.

So right now, those of you who think that literature needs more minority view points or whatever are going “but, that’s exactly what we mean. Why don’t you write your amazingly different culture and enlighten us?” Oh, you’re so lucky you’re faraway enough I can’t hit you with a dictionary.

I’ve been taken to task on this blog before for not writing “about Portugal’s 900 years of history” instead of stuff set in Tudor England. (Portugal is very proud of 900 years of history, which reminds me of Heinlein’s dictum on people who are proud of their ancestry. Never mind.)

So, Chilluns, gather around and let me tell you a story. Imagine a Sarah newly deplaned from Portugal. I knew next to nothing about the US. I’d come here to do my 12th grade, so I sort of kind of knew what it was like to be a senior in high school. Sort of and kind of, because of course exchange students are a species apart. Even that was four years in the past, as I left after my exchange student year, went back, finished my degree, then married the nice boy who’d lived down the road from me in Ohio, thereby managing the feat of marrying the boy next door across the ocean, which is par for the course for my weirdness.

I wanted to write, of course. I particularly wanted to write because for the first time in my life I was living with someone – my husband – who not only didn’t disapprove of it, but encouraged it. On novelty alone, I wanted to write.

The problem is you can’t always write aliens. You can’t always write fairies. And I didn’t feel qualified to write Americans. And there’s only so many people without a past you can write. (I was hit over the head, I swear. I remember nothing but two minutes in the past.)

I decided to do the sensible thing and write stories set in Portugal and/or with Portuguese characters. It did not go WELL.

The BEST response I got (it was personal!) was a rejection informing me I was a narrowminded pain, who clearly had never been outside the US (this, btw, for a story I didn’t think was in ANY WAY critical of Portugal. Yeah, there are things that drive me nuts about the place, but I also love many of those things. Kind of like you’ll love the way your kid always looks scruffy. I thought that was clear in the story. The thing this person objected to? The fact that no one refrigerated anything and the fact that TO THEM the place sounded icky.)

It was that rejection that opened my eyes. I realized I was up against the “betraying a little” dilemma again. It wasn’t going to be as easy as writing WELL about Portugal. If I wanted to write about Portugal, I had to choose my lies carefully, but I was going to HAVE to lie. Or write non-fiction, dry as dust and twice as boring.

That is, to write about Portugal, I had to know enough about the US to know at least what was LIKELY to be in the editor’s head when the word Portugal was said. I had to know what they expected. This wasn’t as easy as say your picture of Australia (Crocks and big knives) because Portugal is not that well (mis)known. More importantly, I needed to know what people wanted to get out of reading about Portugal. Did they want to experience the exotic, in which case I should emphasize that? Did they want a sense of history, in which case I should push that? Or did they want the feeling that they were enlightened and kind for reading about this small, barely second world country, in which case I should emphasize the victimhood and struggle? What did they want?

It was a hopeless case. I realized I couldn’t cram the whole organic culture as I’d known it in there. I couldn’t even put in the warts (because Portugal is a small country, even if I come from there, if I put in the warts, publishers will perceive it as bullying and myself as a “narrow minded pain.”) Worse, I didn’t know what they thought were warts (what? Really? Lack of refrigeration? Mankind lived for millennia without it, you know?)

Worse, at best anything I wrote about Portugal to be halfway accurate would need to be between whatever Americans could accept (exotic, Latin, etc.) and the truth and I didn’t know America enough to get there. It was like trying to translate when all you know is classroom language on one side. You can’t do it.

So I gave up on that and wrote historical (mostly Rome and England because there the stereotypes I had weren’t that far off) and eventually became comfortable enough to write American characters.

I think at this point I could write Portuguese set/Portuguese characters. I’m accultured enough to reach Americans I THINK.

The problem is, I don’t really want to. We come up against those moral and ethical dilemmas again and it makes writing SUCH a pain.

First, we come up on the reason I moved here at all: I always felt like a stranger in a strange land. Part of this was me. Part of it, though, is that my family – I’m reminded of this every time I go back – is odd. Oh, not in any bad way, but I continuously meet other Portuguese who assume they know how… my family interacts; what I was taught at home; what we ate; what we believed. They’re wrong on almost every count. And the weird thing is they’d be right for ALMOST every Portuguese of my class, age, and upbringing at least as far as I can tell. I’ve come to the conclusion my family (and to an extent the village I grew up in) is just a bunch of outliers. Which explains why going to friends’ houses for vacation was like being an exchange student. No, I don’t know why or how this happened, but I know if I portray “real Portuguese” it will feel profoundly weird to me.

Second: Most Portuguese in the US – for the few people who actually KNOW Portuguese people – come from the Islands (Azores and Madeira) which makes them about as much like me (from the North of the continent) as a native of NYC is like a native of the deep south. No. Less so. In the states, you’re more likely to have had schooling rituals (prom/homecoming, etc) and chain stores in common.

Third: I have been away from Portugal for twenty five years, save for brief visits. In that time everything has changed, perhaps more so than in most places, due to integration into EEC, huge immigration from Eastern Europe, etc. I SIMPLY don’t know how things work now. Even the schooling system seems to have been reinvented from the ground up. There are a LOT of private universities, for instance, while in my day there were two and they weren’t taken seriously. There are also more grades and arranged differently. People’s shopping has rearranged with the introduction of supermarkets and not always in ways I understand. And NONE of it makes sense to me. For instance, my parents’ house was near a train stop. Not a station. Usually not listed in anything, just a place on the line where the train stopped. You could get in and get your ticket onboard from the conductor. Over the last twenty five years, the “stop” has acquired shelters, clocks and announcements. Also graffiti and loiterers. Okay fine. But this time, when I went back, I found out you now have automated machines where… you get a ticket to get a ticket on the train. Yes, that’s right. You buy a ticket from the machine, which allows you to buy a ticket on the train. Why? I don’t know. My mother couldn’t explain it, and the stuff on the machine made no sense. Even HOW to do it made no sense. My parents have started using the bus, which is more uncomfortable and takes longer, simply because they don’t get HOW to do it. I’m sure there’s a reason for this double-blind ticket purchase other than the Portuguese love for bureaucracy. Or maybe there isn’t. BUT I don’t know. And that’s a minor example.

I realized I knew nothing of Portugal when my husband, my kids and I found ourselves in a sizeable village at lunch time, starving, and I couldn’t figure out WHERE to buy food. (In villages it’s not necessarily marked, and besides you can buy food at any of the following: grocery stores; restaurants; taverns; coffee shops; improvised for-the-season cafes. Or all of those might NOT serve food. The ones I found I couldn’t determine if they did, and had no idea how to ask.)

I know you don’t believe that last, and that’s an example of why it’s hard for me to write about Portugal – because I don’t know what’s in your head and now half the time I don’t know what’s in Portugal, either.

So, to pull it all back – insistence that minorities only must be allowed to write minorities MIGHT seem like it makes sense. Kind of like translating “I got my son’s pen” makes sense. They know how their culture/lifestyle works, so of course they’d write it better.

But it’s NOT like writing it. It’s not an account. Because novels are – at least supposed to be – entertaining, it’s more like translating. What you write must not only be accurate. It must sound accurate to the reader. The two are antithetical. So at best it’s a compromise and a small betrayal.

Are minorities/foreigners/etc. capable of doing this? Of course. As I said, I think at this point I am at least for short stories (not sure about trying a novel.) But can they do it better than a non-native/non minority who studies it really well and writes about it?

Well… yes. No. Maybe. It depends on the individual writing and how willing they are to take out their own experiences, unpack them, and then betray them a little to match what’s in the reader’s head, so they can make sense of it all.

Portugal is hellishly difficult to research from the US – great regional variation, for instance (coming from the fact that it’s only in the last twenty years that they’ve started defeating tribalism, and that not well. Not real tribes, but the different regions ARE different ethnicities.) Also no one has written a “Daily Life In Portugal” – though there is a “Daily Life in Medieval Portugal” which I haven’t read, though I’ve bought it. Portugal is hellishly difficult to research from Portugal, too. I had trouble finding a good, comprehensive history when I visited. And because their distribution of books is insane (the concept of back list was alien when I was growing up at least) and there’s no amazon.pt, it’s very difficult to get history (or other) books on specific narrow topics. You might go to the story looking for an history of Roman Portugal, but what’s on the shelves right then is an history of Port Wine; an history of Celtic Portugal; and an history of shoe laces.

However, I think I’d at least consider reading the book if someone were dedicated enough to wade in and read all the books (many of them in Portuguese) you can read to get the complete-enough picture to write about Portugal and did it without either condescension or too much clean up (Portugal… well, dears, let’s just say when I was growing up there we considered Italians and Greeks organized. And Ireland has almost Germanic precision as far as we were concerned. And we were PROUD of this. We should be. Looking from the outside it’s a minor miracle anything works enough to keep up a technological society to the extent it exists. BUT I understand this – it must be genetic because not only do I fight it every day, but so do my kids. HOWEVER most people would, I think, clean most of it away) and without implying Portuguese are victims because they live in less materially comfortable circumstances (and have a guaranteed month of vacation in Summer, a week at Easter and Christmas, plus the most holidays of any country in Europe.)

Do I hunger for such a book? To be blunt, no. I worry that the betrayals made would spin the book even further away from my admittedly odd experience. I worry I would for the rest of my life be meeting people who go “Oh, you’re Portuguese, so you’re exactly like…” (I wonder if Greeks feel that way about “My Big Fat Greek Wedding.”)

I prefer to read about interesting people, no matter where they come from. Oh, I’ll give a try to the exotic, if simply because it’s a change of pace. Stuff set in rural South Africa for instance. And I absolutely ADORED Paul Mann’s Indian mysteries, one of those series I don’t think lasted long enough.

HOWEVER if I start a book set somewhere and it’s all about “victimhood” it goes against the wall so hard it leaves marks. Oh, sure, some people have it really tough (Paul Mann’s description of the underclass in India was responsible for my donating more than I should to various charities) but for books to be entertaining they can’t just be about oppression and misery and taking it. Good authors get over plotting by dropping walls on character. And most readers don’t view fiction reading as an exercise in self flagellation where you must suffer to understand how bad other people’s circumstances are.

And when I say I’d read about exotic locales, those can be in Europe, too. Small town England in the present day would be fascinating. (The latest I’ve read set there was Agatha Christie.) It has nothing to do with stealing victimhood, only with me being an SF geek, forever looking for the alien – even when I’m aware it’s “translated” and “betrayed.”

So, that is the ultimate conclusion: I’d be willing to read anything, written by anyone, as long as it’s interesting. I don’t want to read about people “like me” and I’m not angry there aren’t more of us as characters. (One of my characters has a series about a woman with my background. I don’t want to know. No, seriously. I’d have to kill him in a horrible way. And don’t say “what do you mean one of your characters has…” Any explanation would land one of us in the loony bin.) I don’t object to reading about people like me, though, if done in a way I find entertaining. And I don’t care about the background of the author, provided he/she can write the story convincingly.

Exciting, uh? Aren’t you amazed? I know I am. That this is shocking to the establishment explains why they’re in trouble.

Stop, Thief!

A couple of years ago, a male friend who wrote from a female POV got back a letter telling him this was unethical. Not just bad writing, mind – which knowing my friend it wouldn’t be – but wrong on a moral level. He couldn’t write women, because he wasn’t one.

This worried me because I’m one of those writers who writes preferentially as the opposite gender. There have always been half a dozen of them (Heinlein was about even) and in my case, when I started writing, I just didn’t feel comfortable writing as a woman. Part of this was that I was raised to be a tomboy and, having attended an all girls’ school for five years, know that I’m not only NOT a typical female, I have no clue how typical females work. But on top of that, I didn’t know how AMERICAN females worked. (Yes, they’re more different than males. Partly, I think because women are more “creatures of the group” by evolutionary design.)

However, when I looked further into this, I found out that the problem was not writing something you’re not – phew! Those of us who have written aliens ARE grateful – but this thing called “stealing victimhood.” You’re not supposed to write anyone who can be considered down the totem pole from you and “victims of society.” Yes, yes, for this they use the whole Marxist thought thing which, as you know, makes my teeth hurt (as the fangs come out.)

But let’s forget that for a moment, because if I start beating up on Marx I’ll be here all day and I have a book to finish.

Let’s just assume that they are right and that there is inherent “victimhood” in being female, “of color” (as opposed to those translucent people you see all around. Total yucko, them. Also, they get run over all the time because people can’t see them), gay or handicapped.

Okay, so there’s “victimhood”. And? What do they mean “stealing victimhood?” Is it points in a game that you collect and can convert into cash?

My dears, I know that it doesn’t make sense, but yes, in their minds – which means the minds of many recent college graduates, editors included – YES. Yes, there’s inherent value in being a victim. Yes, this will convert into mountains of cash.

Take a deep breath. What this means is that … Yes, yes, indeed… These people BUY BOOKS because of that. And I don’t mean just for their private consumption, but for selling to other people.

Now think about it, boys, girls and dragons, when IS the last time you picked up a book in the store or downloaded a sample from Amazon, for that matter and went “This book is about a deaf pacific islander lesbian! It’s a total buy!” Right. Unless for some reason I’m interested about the life of deaf pacific islander lesbians at THAT moment, then the book better have a lot more to recommend it. I suspect most people are the same.

Except possibly editors and glitterati. The books my kids are forced to read for school, which are a fair sample of what the “intellectuals” consider good are often exactly like that “oppressed minority gets oppress” IS the book.

And the fact they think that “victimhood” is something to steal just about tells you why the publishing houses are almost all scrambling on the verge of bankruptcy.

Look, kiddies, if I want to experience someone who gets victimized I can look at being a writer struggling to survive while everyone has their hand in your pocket. Only that’s not likely to be bought and would probably confuse the readers who know we’re all rich.

I write characters of all colors, including some that don’t exist in reality. I write characters of all sexual orientations, including some that don’t exist in reality (dragons turn them on. No, really. Um… I should release that story for kindle), I write characters from every possible origin and of some impossible genders (shape changing/gender changing elf.)

What I DO NOT write are victims. Oh, some of my characters are up against huge obstacles and some of them get crushed in the end, but they go down swinging. (Not usually that type of swinging, no. I get bored writing it, guys. Sorry.) If they lose, they lose with fists balled and yelling defiance to the world.

Why? Because I have no time for victims. And I PARTICULARLY, STRONGLY despise people who think being born something like woman or melanin enhanced or gay makes you a victim. It’s funny, but none of my friends in that situation feel that way. Oh, they’re sometimes annoyed at the way people behave to them – like, who isn’t? – but that’s part of being human. None of them lies down groaning and muttering “oh, the injustice.”

So, I’ll continue writing whatever and whomever I d*mn well please. If I do it badly, you can stomp me. But you CANNOT accuse me of “stealing victimhood.”

I didn’t do it, guv. Ain’t taken no victimhood. You won’t find it anywhere on me.

*Crossposted at Mad Genius Club*

Momma said there’d be days

Some days it’s hardly worth getting out of bed. I woke up feeling icky and sluggish. Yes, I realize this is probably part of the adjustment to altitude and time change. But then it’s been one long morning of being nibbled by ducks. Admnistrivia is the curse of the writer without a full time assistant.

I swear I had some interesting – I think? – thoughts around here somewhere. If only I can find them. They might very well have slipped through the cracks on the floor.

I want to write but right now all my body feels like doing is curling up and vegetating. I’m going to go for a walk, and hopefully it will reset my body so I can work.

Sorry. Hopefully I’ll be “on” tomorrow. Meanwhile there’s a new shape shifter/vampire collection of mine out from Naked Reader. The title story, Blood Ransom is the most recent one, and is in the worldbuilding for the “present day” vampire world – the continuum of the Musketeers vampire stories. I’m calling that world Blood Worlds mostly because it’s obvious.  http://nakedreader.com/

Oh, yeah, and my son has more Ninja Nun out.

And now I’m goign to walk.  If you find my mind in your desk drawers or something, send it back.  I’ll pay postage.

Are We There Yet?

This is a compilation of how the ebook front looks to me at the moment. Things might look completely different to the next person over, particularly if the next person over knows more about publishing than I do (which isn’t as easy as it used to be, but is also not impossible.) I thought it might interest those of you who are on the outside or not professionally involved in the field.

First let me tell you that a lot of the stuff you hear about ebooks and how everyone is reading ebooks is just pie in the sky. It is talk that is familiar to me – and has been for a while – because ebooks have been talked about in every possible venue (and some impossible ones) for the about twenty years I’ve been paying attention to the market.

Long before I sold my very first short story – heck, long before I sent it out – I was attending conferences in which some minor agent or editor solemnly informed us that the coming thing was ebooks and it would upend all of publishing. Or else that the coming thing was novels with active content.

It went on for so long, in fact, that everyone – this included, I think, most of the NY publishing establishment – gave up on it and decided ebooks were a lie. I started hearing theories on why they’d never come: book readers are inherently more conservative than game players; books on paper are a sensuous experience – etc.

Of course now things are different. Now we have Amanda Hocking and such, surprise bestsellers created by epublishing.

But are things different? Really? There have always been “self published bestsellers”, what we used to call “books from the back of the van.” Look up The Celestine Prophecy. Twelve years ago I attended the Pikes Peak Writers conference and – as an unpublished author – was told my best shot was to publish my own book, “with a nice cover” and then send it that way to the publishers, who were then more likely to buy it. “Particularly if you’ve hand-sold 500 copies or so yourself.” Was this true? I don’t know. Just as I don’t know if Dean Wesley Smith’s advice that I do a POD of a book, then send it to editors with a specific letter on what rights I’m willing to sell would work. It might. Or it might not. It SHOULD. But… are we there yet?

Gut feeling? No. We’re not there yet. I think we’ll be. I do think there’s a future for writing and for writers. Whether there will be a lost generation first, that’s something I can’t answer. I will give, though, as a shred of hope, the fact that this whole thing is moving much faster than I expected. OTOH keep in mind it’s moving much slower than industry insiders expected twenty years ago.

So, here’s a snapshot of the battle as I see it right now. Remember, in a large battle all a foot soldier can see is the area around herself. Over a few dozen feet it might be completely different.

Here’s what I see – through the email lists I belong to, through reading articles and gleaning numbers from whispered comments – most writers aren’t making a living from their own ebooks yet. In fact, all the way from high mid list to raw beginner, the numbers are startlingly consistent and run in the mid hundreds at best – or about 10% even the suckiest publisher printrun.

This is for fiction and specifically for genre fiction. It’s entirely possible that it’s completely different for non fiction and how to books. I wouldn’t know.

It’s possible the reason for this is that – by publisher choice of what to publish – genre readership has been graying. They are now at best late middle age, a time when people don’t adopt technology very fast. But the graying of the readership was a problem before ebooks, and one we’ll have to contend with anyway.

The fact that romance is the one genre bucking this trend – they sell much better in ebooks, sometimes amazingly well – would indicate this hypothesis is correct, as romance has the least gray readership.

However, these numbers, small though they are, have the industry in a tailspin. How much they’d have been in a tailspin anyway, and are simply using this to cover up their issues, I don’t know. The industry is opaque, autocratic and as I’ve mentioned elsewhere not only cut itself off from market signals, but considered this cutting off a good thing. (Economics, they iz doing it wrong.)

I’ll note in passing that Baen is having a banner year, despite some glitches with their conference, and despite the fact their ebooks aren’t available on Amazon. They do, otoh, try to stay in touch with their audience and publish what the readers want.

So for the midlister like myself the choice is scant. On the one hand the publishing industry which gave us ulcers seems to be imploding. Yay. OTOH it is no longer providing the contracts it once did and which kept us alive at least at a subsistence level. Uh Oh. On the one hand various things coming out seem to indicate that our readership really was always larger than they said. Yay. OTOH that readership doesn’t seem to be present in ebooks. The dame or the tiger. Choose, but choose now.

I’m not quite in that boat. For one I work for Baen (Yay) for another I’ve got contracts between Baen and other companies to be very busy for another year and a half (Yay) at almost my normal income (Yay.) On the other hand, a book turned in to a company not Baen three months ago has yet to be accepted/scheduled, and I have no clue what is going on since the editor is not answering me. (Uh Oh.) And payments seem to come later and later (very uh oh, and the reason – watch this space – there will be a “subscribe to Sarah” program.)

But I’m still in that boat, as I look further ahead. I have no reason to believe my relationship with Baen won’t continue. However, as per Laurell K. Hamilton (thanks Laurell) one shouldn’t work for a single publisher. Security and sanity demand spreading out the risk. Also, to be blunt, I write mystery too and the sort of dark fantasy Baen is not a good outlet for.

So, the Titanic is sinking, but I’m floating atop the grand piano.

It is my belief that as books collapse more – and they seem to be – ebooks can’t help but rise. Market abhors a vaccum. (Except Dyson.)

Because of economies of scale, I see no reason that ebooks can’t support writers. As more people self-publish it will become obvious it is NOT as widespread an ability as most people think (look at most slush piles) and also that more people are willing to read more, if their tastes – not the distributors – are catered to. It’s an underserved market.

But writers might need to write more – which I can probably do, once I’m past this tight spot of contracted books and books I really want to do for Baen and that I’m fairly sure Toni will take. I mean, I can write six books a year. Have done it. And I suspect Baen can’t take all of them, not unless this next book sells beyond all expectations and not unless Toni takes an interest in mystery or vampires (and not just to set them on fire, as per Larry Correia, though his methods are great too.)

I think writing will become as it once was, in the hallowed days of pulp. The book itself doesn’t make much money, but it stays in print forever and once you have a back list it will feed you comfortably.

Will it become that in time for me to have a healthy career? Who knows. All I know I that the field as it existed has exploded. You can’t put humpty dumpty together again.

All births are messy. All births involve blood and pain and the possibility of death for both parent and child. The solution, though, is not to try to keep the child in the womb till college (which is what some of the main stream presses seem to be betting on.) Once labor starts it has to progress. And once a baby is in there, it will have to come out (a realization that gave me the horrors five months into my first pregnancy.)

So I see nothing for it but put my shoulder under the load and heave up. Even if I’m afraid to end up as the Fallen Caryatid.

In the end it helps to remember that publishing wasn’t pushed. It threw itself down the cliff. And it is only the appearance of ebooks that allows most writers today to have hope of making a decent living someday.

Home, Sweet

All the Port Wine made it through.  The bags are semi-unpacked, their contents distributed into stacks.  I must find out if I still have furniture under the dust and cat fuzz.  Then I need to get back to work.  I hear there are people waiting for the next Darkship…

Slices Of Life

Every time I come back to Portugal I catch up on who has married/had children/divorced/died since I left. At this point the list of survivors is smaller than the list of those on the other side.

This is, of course, true of everyone. We are born to a world of adults and as we age, they age also, and die. The problem is the distance and the fact I only come back every few years.

It is a problem because the minute I get on the plane I forget all the changes. Look, it makes perfect sense. After all my mind is used to the village as it was, a place where it spent close to twenty five years. It’s much easier to return there than to the little snatches it gets for one to two weeks every few years. So every time I come back I find myself, at the back of my mind expecting to see my grandmother and to visit the places of my childhood. My grandmother is of course long dead and those places covered in cement.

What I get are slices of life that amount to one of those mainstream novels where you see people age, and the family line die out.

Sometimes I wonder if my grandmother’s best friends, who lived across the street most of my childhood and kept one of two general stores in the village, would be heartbroken to find their family line has died out without descendants, leaving their sprawling house and old garden empty and shuttered the moss-covered walls covered with “for sale” signs. Would they still have engaged as vigorously in the life of the village, sold peanuts and candy to the village children and helped build the giant bonfire every summer Solestice? Would they have worked quite so hard? Would they be sad to see their home closed and falling to ruin?

Is it a mercy they don’t know, or could they have changed their life course if they did?

These stories happen around us all the time, I know. It only affects me more because of distance, of seeing it suddenly again, and of that childhood that no one who is part of my day to day life remembers and of which these people were such an integral part. It is a question as old as time. If we could look into the future, what would we change today? And would it be good or bad?

Stories have been written about this, and I can’t add to them, or change them. I can only feel a vague melancholy about this being human thing and all its limitations.