One of the things that the left side of the isle (but not just them) don’t understand about people like us is our chaotic nature.
Yes, I do have a coffee mug that says “I like playing chaotic neutral, because I like to keep all my options open.”
One, I don’t actually play D & D. I did it once, when I was a housewife with a small boy and stuck at home all day and I think I inadvertently took up DMing for the group, which made it way too much work. If I’m going to work that hard, I want a novel at the end.
Okay, okay, I realize it might be different with a different group, and am perfectly willing to try it. There are local friends who have offered. Maybe towards the end of the year, if there’s time. But still I’ve never done it.
Two, from my sons who both play RPGs I’ve come to realize that “chaotic neutral” means you might save the orphans from the burning orphanage… or set the orphanage on fire. So, I know I’m not that. I could be. (More on that later.) But I’m not. I have internal principles I cannot betray, at the risk of becoming “not me.” The mug is funny though, just like my other coffee mug “I drink and slay dragons. That’s what I do.” … really, I don’t drink that much, and the dragon dragon-slayer has been done to death.
But it occurs to me to a lot of the left (and some of the more socially conservative right) we LOOK chaotic neutral. Why?
Because they have not the slightest notion who or what we are.
Take the Tea Party, before it got weird. And keep in mind that I think the Col Springs one was a weird half false flag, half crazy evangelical organization from the beginning, that, for instance, asked you to donate a can of food to the homeless shelter organization AND had the people from Focus on the Family give speeches.
It was still, mainly, against taxes. And against government over reach. At lest as to its attendance. Healthcare, 25 percent of gross GDP had just got grabbed by government, by a procedural trick, with the fricking IRS administering it, and even the so called “right wing”(they aren’t) news media were playing footsie. The vast opposition had no voice.
I don’t remember how I heard about the tea party but it was back door of a back door, of a back door, if that makes sense. Hell, it might have been my Marxist neighbor who told me, sneering, over the garden fence.
This was early on. We expected trouble. I was still — I thought — semi-closeted.
There was NEVER any chance I wouldn’t go. I decided early on no car. I’d walk downtown (I’ve been to demonstrations where parked cars got set on fire by the left. But at any rate, it would be hell to park.)
And I walked down.
Later on the tea party would be painted as an evangelical and of course racisss sexissss homophobic movement. This is logical if you follow the left’s (racist, sexist homophobic beliefs — more on that later) and I think it ended up attracting crazy people TM both because revolutionary movements always do, and because of the rep the left gave it. But even I was surprised at how fricking diverse that first demonstration was.
Seriously, as I was walking down (about a mile and three quarters) with an air of purpose, I noticed people also walking down.
To give some background, I lived in downtown Colorado Springs, a dot of blue in a sea of red. Also I lived, as we often have throughout our married life, at the edge of the lavender zone. Not that we seek it out, but I live, by preference, where I can walk to shops and libraries (used to be coffee shops) because I need to walk for my health, but I have the hunter-gatherers attitude about wasting energy for nothing. As in “don’t do it.” If I have a place I can walk to, I do so. Also, of course, we have writer and mathematician money, which isn’t exactly either steady or crazy money. So we pick places on the edge of gentrifying. Safe but not expensive as hell. Which are often right next to or in the lavender zone.
So yeah, there were gay people — wearing the rainbow colors — walking down with me. I thought they were going to counter-protest, which means the joke is on me and leftist propaganda fools even our side.
Also the neighborhood was probably higher in “vibrant diversity” than the rest of the state, except for areas of Denver. We were two blocks from Colorado College. And well, you know that sort of neighborhood. Thing is of course, not all of it was vibrant. There were also decent people of all colors in the neighborhood.
Anyway, there were also people of every color who walked down and joined the demonstration. My biggest surprise was the bus from the Reservation, with tribe members in full regalia, who came to downtown Colorado springs to protest government overreach. Well, I guess they’d know something about that.
Imagine my surprise when photos in the local paper showed only white people, and talked about a racist/white supremacist movement.
The question is, did the media realize it was lying? Or did they only see the white members and “protect” the rest of us from our “misguided actions”?
You see, from the left’s perspective any movement that opposes government freebies for all must be racist sexist and homophobic. Their true opinions of these groups are revealed in that: i.e. if you’re not a (northern) European male, you MUST need government assistance. (Hello, Left! These are MY middle fingers.)
This is confirmed when you mention, say welfare and they ASSUME you’re talking about people of color. Because they really despise anyone who can tan that much. (These are my middle fingers again, and note I have a matched set.)
Because of this deep-set, unshakable and absolutely unexamined (if they examined it they’d have to understand they’re stone cold racists. Yes, of course they dance around it by saying these groups are poor because of “institutionalized inequity but only the dumber of them get fooled by this) assumption, they can’t comprehend us or our principles.
So every time we oppose them, they have to assume we are against giving opportunities (read benefits and the bigotry of low expectations) to these people who just can’t help themselves. So we’re bad, evil. We’re rich white people with all the power, fighting the rise of the enlightened minorities.
Yeah…. okay, I’ve been kind of pale for years. If you look at my picture, those of you with medical training will also realize that very pale face also has the characteristic puffy hypothyroidal mask. That’s because my hypothyroidism is NOT of the standard kind, and took about 20 years to detect s it got worse and worse. This year it’s at least half fixed, and those who saw me at LC asked if I’d been to the beach. Well, no. I spent about two hours outside on a relatively warm spring day. And I’m still very pale for me.
When I was a newlywed in the apartment complex in NC the neighbors assumed, without even asking, that I was Mexican.
I’m also against not just government bennies but against the kind of “enlightenment” that hires/buys to “racial percentage” instead of to excellence. I believe excellence is excellence, and it should be rewarded for the good of our science, our art and our military.
According to the left, this means I want to keep minorities and women from writing/being published in sf/f. This is a pale bronze middle finger upraised in your direction, wankers. None of you ever explained how I’m supposed to accomplish that while I’m a midlist writer with absolutely NO power in the publishing industry. Newsflash, even if we had changed the Hugo awards for a year or ten, it wouldn’t stop anyone from striving and publishing. Also, before you mau-maued people into dropping out we had all sexes and colors (most of them. We probably didn’t have pale bronze. Also we didn’t to my knowledge have anyone who identified as a wingless dragon AND an ornate building. I could be wrong. You see, we just read the stories, not the writers.) in the running.
But of course, because they’re stone cold racists, if we’re not actively running around pushing people who aren’t ready into publication/awards just because they’re the right sex/color/politics, then we’re keeping them out of publishing. Yes, that’s right, you victims of Marxist brainwashing who aren’t northern European males. The left thinks you’ll never survive by your wits alone. (Have I mentioned middle fingers? Does it help if I paint the nails bright red?)
I’ve helped, to the extent of my ability and unstintingly people of all sexes/orientations/colors get their start in writing. I don’t have the power to get them published, except indie, but heck, some (most)of my fledgelings in writing/indie are doing way better than I did at their time, and about half better than I do now, financially.
But the left can ONLY understand my actions through the lens of wanting to keep those people they think are incapable of making it on their own out of publishing.
So they don’t understand us.
To them we’re either evil or chaotic neutral.
I’m going to explain it now once and for all. I don’t believe in numbers, or statistics of distributions of color and sex and orientation (you know what, I’m starting to believe the injunction against taking censuses in the Old Testament was just good, decent common sense.) I don’t believe people need to be pushed/shoved into every field in population proportional numbers. There is no worse tyranny than that which dictates your life choices according to numbers and in the belief that you are a widget.
Human beings are not widgets and culture of subgroups is a thing. it’s perfectly possible for people to not want to write, oh, science fiction or do, oh, engineering, because their micro culture isn’t into that. It’s possible for women to want to stay home and raise kids, without being “oppressed.”
My beliefs can be summed up in: Let my people be. Actually let ALL the people be. Take your big busybody… mind, and go stick it in your own life. You’re not the boss of me. You’re not the boss of us.
I/we believe in life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness for individuals. WE believe in individuals. We think you have no clue what an individual even is, and we think you should put your own house in order before you tell us how to live.
Examine your own beliefs, and stop trying to “change the world” when you don’t have any clue how to even clean your room.
Go clean your room. Because I tell you this, you’re sh*t out of luck when it comes to “ruling the world” (which is what you mean by changing it. I speak fluent proggy.)
We will not let you. And we’re determined, angry as h*ll and, unlike you (who could pick any socialist paradise on the map) we have nowhere else to go.
We’re also chaotic, leaderless, and a bit nuts. Which means not only don’t you “get”us, you never will.
So, stop trying, go clean your room, give up the mind-altering substances, and learn a useful trade that doesn’t involve bossing others. This is not judgemental, btw. It’s what you need to do before you have a hope of convincing us you know anything.