I understand there is pleasure in idleness. I understand because OTHER PEOPLE tell me so.
Maybe it is something like sleeping. I used to hear there was pleasure in sleeping, but I never fully believed it. Sleeping is what happened when I ran out of energy, and it was done reluctantly. Ever since I was a little kid, I felt when I slept, a portion of my life was stolen. So I hated it.
Then I had kids. The times I could lie down and JUST sleep were like gifts from the gods, and the greatest pleasure known to men. Forget chocolate, all I needed was a bed.
Maybe idleness is that way too. Maybe at some point I will enjoy it, cherish it, realize why other people love it.
Today is not that day.
I’ve been convinced — okay, Amanda Green yelled at me — that I need to take one and maybe two weeks between books. I’m not fully convinced that this is why I got ill, but I sort of understand it. Creating things is HARD and if you just go go go you hit a flat spot, and things that should be easy take twice as long.
So, having finished the second book of the year two months late (mostly because of the flat spot/autoimmune/massive ear infection) I am TRYING to take a week off. The problem is that my brain doesn’t BEND that way. I can wake up, think I am too tired and roll over, but the guilt of it won’t let me sleep.
I’m trying to keep the guilt quiet by doing Spring cleaning. Where I came from, we did a huge cleaning Fall and Spring, the equivalent of turning the house upside down and giving it a good shake. This meant if you slipped one or two weeks and didn’t clean, it wasn’t the end of the world, and the house was still effectively pretty clean. It’s still hard. I had to stomp pretty hard on the idea that keeps recurring that “short stories aren’t REALLY writing.”
I really seem to having nothing between stopped and going full force. It’s a skill I’m trying to acquire.
Anyway, having decided to take a week off, I’m trying not to brain too hard on these posts too. I hope you guys are okay with that.
There will still be posts. Some of them might be odder than usual though.
And meanwhile, reward wrong thinkers, get free books!