
Blogs are a weird thing. No, look… When I was young, I wanted to be a journalist. I’ll wait till you stop hissing.
The thing is, I wanted to be a real journalist. And because I grew up with all sorts of books set in the thirties and forties, I both believed that journalists would tell the truth and that they had a pathway where they came up by doing obituaries and flower shows and worked up to investigating homicides and crooked politicians.
Weirdly interning for a newspaper over three months, as part of my journalism class in high school didn’t dissuade me. I worked in the morgue where I did research for people, basically. And that was fine.
It was becoming more aware of newspapers, and how slanted they were, and also the interview where I was told I was politically biased and they couldn’t hire me, when in fact I was politically un-biased that dissuaded me and shut that door.
Just as well, since journalism was probably never what I thought.
But the weird thing is that in a way I’m a journalist now, though more of an editorial opinion writer. In a way that I couldn’t have figured out when I was young. No, seriously, much amusement is derived from mentally writing a skit in which I go back in time and explain it to young me. “No, no, you won’t work for someone. You just get on the computer and you have your own site where you blather and anyone can read it.”
It is beyond my creativity to imagine explaining to young me the idea of my readers enjoying my typos. (And that’s a smack on the hand with a ruler for every misspelling, Miss Almeida is how I grew up. And let me tell you remembering which way the little accents were supposed to lean was more than tone-deaf me could tell. Of course they’ve now modernized and got rid of accents. When it’s no good to young me. The bastiches.)
Anyway, I think bloggers provide a service people like. Or if they don’t, they have no readers. Our audience is — like the audience for indie books — the purest form of market there is. “I either produce value or no one reads it.”
Given the audience on this blog (I get fewer pings, dropped over night. Seems to be a google counting this.) of around 4k a day give or take, whatever the heck I’m doing (how would I know?) seems to have an audience.
Now if I were doing this for a newspaper, first of all, I wouldn’t be doing a column a day, and second it would be a regular paycheck. I could be entirely deceived on this (why not?) but the impression I had of such jobs is that they paid decentish middle-class type salaries.
Here’s the thing: blogs don’t pay like that.
Blogs pay one of two ways: by having people donate money, or by advertising products. I do some of the second, but honestly, it makes about enough to take my husband out to eat once or twice a month. I do the promo posts because it helps people, but Amazon doesn’t pay bounties on books by and large, so….
Anyway that’s fine. I choose to write the blog. And I didn’t stop even when it paid nothing.
However, I think we can agree that it is a service that has a value. What the value is is up to the readers to determine.
The other part of this is what this blog is.
It’s not as…. bad anymore — for the times they are achanging — because there are things like indie publishing for my fiction, but also because there is a turn of some sort going on in the culture.
But it is still counter-cultural, and against the overculture imposed by the self-proclaimed elite. Who still control much of… everything.
There are signposts on “how crazy is it for me to be doing this?”
The weird stuff attendant on our having to leave to Colorado (or the timing. We were leaving because of the health already, but if we could have taken a year to move it would have been less costly and traumatizing) has never been fully explained.
The fact we were once denied renter insurance because the agent looked at my blog, and said it was too risk…
But most of all, you’d best believe there was a price: in lost work, lost opportunities, and the danger thereof for both me and my family. Even without considering anything more melodramatic.
If you go against the established, loud beliefs of “the good people” you’re either crazy or dangerous and probably both. People hiring you or associating with you might hesitate to do either.
Sometime ago I got in a fight on twitter with someone who disapproved of Glenn Reynolds of instapundit doing fund raising because he’s a law professor and takes expensive vacations. Therefore he “doesn’t need it.”
But that’s not the point, is it? It’s not need. I did one fundraiser in need.
The others? I do because I provide a service every day. I get up and I have to post. or I’m working till midnight on a post the day before. One or the other. Every day. (And you should ask my husband how much he approves of this.) Including on our recent trip. I’d be typing in the car, or late any night in a hotel. No vacation unless I get enough guest posts to take a break.
And the thing is, as well or as badly as us, bloggers to do right of Lenin, do in our day jobs (well, it should be easier now that I’m over the nine month sinus infection with attendant cough that kept me awake at night. How bad was it? I had to sleep with a cough drop in my mouth and woke up coughing when it was gone, then put another one in. Yes, like that. For nine months. I should be able to get books out. That’s my dayjob.) I GUARANTEE to you we all missed opportunities because our politics are known. We ALL even the boss at instapundit have to work much harder than we would to do well at our day jobs if our politics were secret or left. All of us have paid the price for sticking out our necks.
Most of us can’t or won’t give you specific instances. Some of them I know only through gossip, and can’t substantiate. Others… well…. you have to guess what happened by the negative shape of things that should have happened.
But all of us have these. And if you compare histories the pattern becomes d*mn obvious.
Because you see, there is a price for sticking your neck out, for breaking the chorus of approved opinions. For being the nail that sticks out.
Now, you’ll say, that was our decision. You’re not obligated to compensate us.
You’re right. You’re not.
Heck, for years I took the entire cost of it because it was my choice. I refused to do a fundraiser. Until I realized it affected my family too. And while they never complained, it d*mn well wasn’t THEIR choice.
The point is, though why do a fundraiser rests on two things:
1- is the service worth it to you.
2- do you think it’s worth to compensate people who take the risk to stick out, so that not everyone has to sing the same song from the same “approved” songbook?
The idea of the lost opportunities, the stomping down on those who dissent, is to make them examples, to prevent them from being perceived as someone to emulate.
If you’re okay with that, you should do nothing. If you aren’t, you should do what you can to compensate those who dare stand out.
That’s all.
Now, my particular fundraiser: I know I’m dismal at follow-through on rewards, though arguably that is mostly due to wretched health these last few years. That HAS been getting better though, and I will try to do better going forward.
Yes, I am aware I still have tuckerizations to do, and they are coming, though it needs my writing books with “normal world” names. Which are planned.
And I have plans for the substack.
However, the options this year will be much clearer and easier. We’ll go into that on the fourth. Not today.
For today I’m just sticking to explaining why bloggers fundraise. And how I view it.
And that’s it.
Not an emergency, and I don’t wish anyone to hurt themselves to contribute. But if you can, if the service provided is valuable to you, consider contributing anyway.
And no, not starting today. Will start on the fourth. This is more a “think about it” for now.
















































































































